Just as the title states, Merry Xmas f-list!!!

Thank you all so much for another wonderful year!

I am so very happy to have such amazing friends, both online and off, and I thank you all for putting up with my...odd-isms! (Especially during this last session at MFWI which was particularly challenging and stressful.)

You are all so great, and I wish you all a merry and happy holiday! *hugs you all*

Listen to Perri's Favorite Winter/Xmas song:

Yuki no Hana - Mika Nakashima
(Soft, sweet and beautiful, just like the girl who sings the song.)
http://www.youtube.com/user/Perriwynkkle#p/a/f/1/w07oi1RH7bw

Oh SME....do you realize how much shit you are in?

First its JaeChunSu and their lawsuit, now its Hankyung of SuJu, and its all about the same thing. Your shitty contracts.

You would think SME, that you, as a company, wouldn't want to destroy your money makers right? Here's another thing SME, you are loosing more money just standing there and letting your bands fall to pieces rather than just giving in, making a few changes to a shitty contract and letting them all get back to being the amazing groups they are.

Yes, you made the groups. Yes, you trained them. Yes, you gave them money to start. But that doesn't give you the right to take away their basic needs/rights. Nor does it give you the right to dictate their lives.

If you were a smart company, you would just do what your performers asked of you. What JaeChunSu and Hankyung are asking for are FAIR and mostly EASY changes to the contracts that would, in effect, barely change a thing to your income or power.

So why, SME, are you being so completely blind to the bullshit your spewing?

I hope charma comes back to bite you square on the ass.

P.S. Break Out is one fucking AWESOME song!!!

With my Japanese girls, they all seemed to enjoy it, even though it was small and not all that eventful.
I had bought fake champagne glasses and sparkling cider and we toasted to their finishing this program and ate the cheesecake and chocolate cupcakes I baked along with cheese crackers and Popsicles. ^-^
I decided to bring my PS2 with DDR, so the girls went absolutely APE-SHIT and played DDR for over 2 hours last night. XD It made me laugh watching them because they really couldn't play it very well, though they tried really hard.
I hope that they had fun and that they give me a good evaluation today. *is scared*

ANYHOOO....I have another wedding to go to on Sunday for which I bought a really cute little dress for with the help of my sister and mother. I am supposed to be saving money for my trip to Japan, but it is so hard with all the temping clothing and coffees and wonderful music to buy...DAMN YOU COOL STUFFZ I NEED TO GO TO NIPPON!!!!

Xmas is soon, I can't wait to be back home with my family, just being able to use a fast internet connection and having a television that isn't always set on Disney Channel.

Changmin, why can't you just crack a little smile for us huh? I miss seeing your beautiful smile. Is it really that hard? Maybe it is. Heck if I know what is going through your brain, eh?

Things I have been thinking about:

- DBSK's future. (But who isn't thinking about this?)
- Christmas and the slippers my sister bought me!
- Snow. I hate snow. 6 inches fell last night. I hate snow.
- How badly I want to move where there is no snow.
- The next HP movie. Because HP is the shiznit.
- How much I want to go home.
- How much I don't really feel like going anywhere...not even to taiko.
- How much I wish I was part of TVXQ's life.
- Did I mention that I hate snow?

Yesterday afternoon, I was over at my friend Mari's house, enjoying myself at a very interesting sushi party.
There was Mari, Myself, Akiko and about 10-12 other friends/acquaintances from my Japanese class who came to enjoy making sushi and getting full on rice and fish.
Everyone had to bring a sushi ingredient, and since I cannot eat raw anything without getting violently ill, I brought fake imitation crab, avocado and a 24 pack of cream soda.
We all had a good time, I was one of the oldest people there aside from Mari and Akiko, so I felt really old...even though I am only 21.
We talked about everything from anime to C-Pop, and hey, I think I may have made another TVXQ fan!
By the end of the night I was so full of sushi and other delights that my poor stomach was near to bursting! ^-^

Though there was a moment there when I had to fight the good fight. Some girl brought up that she thought Twilight was better than Harry Potter.
No people. Just no. Harry Potter was and always will be EPIC. I am sorry, there is a big difference between a fantasy series with thought and brilliance behind it, and a fantasy series with almost no thought and a crapper as the writer who was most likely some form of emo in high school.
J.K. Rowling is an artist whereas Stephanie Meyer is, while not terrible, still close to sucking major ass in the dialogue department. As my friend Miho would say, "Twilight is like good fan-fiction. It gets the job done but really isn't satisfactory."
So if you were to tell me that Twilight is better reading that Harry Potter, I most likely will kick you in the nads, existent or not.
(Though Taylor Laughter IS one sexy mo'fo'.)

"We always have feeling to create a stage as professionals so that all of you can enjoy the circumtances, and in front of all Bigeast, we have will to be honest.
Afterall, when our true smiling face can not be shown yet we still stand on stage, it means that we lie to all fans there, thus we decided to cancel the event.
We need time to organize our mind, and finally we would like to meet everyone with a true smile."
- Tohoshinki -

THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST WITH US ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS!!!! THIS IS ALL I, AND MANY OTHER FANS, WANTED TO HEAR.

I wouldn't have wanted to watch the fanmeet videos if your faces and presence there would have been awkward. I had a feeling you five would cancel as it seems all your lives are living hells right now. I am personally not hurt but I feel sad for the fans who may have bought tickets.

For some reason this message gives me hope more than makes me more worried....maybe its this sentence, "We need time to organize our mind, and finally we would like to meet everyone with a true smile."
It makes me believe they are trying to work things out and know that they can only do so much right now. It makes me also believe that someday, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but someday, they will be together again, smiling again, and beating all the odds.

I love you TVXQ. I love you so much! Ganbatte!